You think i bitch nd complain too much or jus over dramatic but i dont talk to waste my breathe. I freaked out nd went over the top but you know what, you know how i am nd you’re the one that tells me not to change the way i am for nobody not even for you. But we all know thas a lie bc nobody wants me to stay the way i am, I’m not stable or normal but you know what i dont wana be bc if i am then id be like everyone else nd that would be boring. I FXCKEN HATE VIDEO GAMES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thas all you do is watch someone play video games or play it (rarely) but thru some part of the day you gotta see it fck.








Honestly i havent changed, my perspective of myself, insecurities, the trust for my bf … nothing. I wish i could fix me he thinks he loves me jus the way i am but i can never understand why. I wana believe what he says to me nd that he will never leave me but for how long is forever to anyone next week next month next year what is it. I’m not good enough for my bf i believe that nd i cant help it. I dont feel worth enough to anyone nd it sucks. I love you babe but idk what to do anymore..

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Me i dont speak that often to anyone or try not to care about other people because im usually the one ending up getting hurt. I’m used to not caring about people that dont care about me because at one point i loved someone so much that i was blind to see the fact that he could give a rats ass that i died. 
So finally being with someone that cares so much about you nd you care about them, only makes me even more worries that I’m going to hurt more than the last time. My father has always told me, its not a broken arm that hurts the most…its a broken heart. Its very much true but the way i feel for my bf is nothing compared to anyone that ive ever gone out with nd i do not wana find out how bad of a feelibg it could get. This just sucks, he doesnt do anything wrong really i just feel like nothing.

it hasnt changed.

this is frikken ridiculous, no matter what i do &nd I’m still insecure; everyone thinks that I don’t have nothing to worry about but that’s not what I feel. to me when I look in the mirror I think I’m an average looking person with a kind of chunky frame &nd jus nothing special. people that know me say the complete opposite but nothing anyone tells me feels like the truth. ugh I’m so hard head &nd stubborn it’s hard for me to believe anything anyone tells me; dammit this isnt good at all. I’ve been trying to change that but it’s not working.